I agree with Payne ~ a talk with a therapist might also discover WHY the only relationships you've had HAVE been abusive.

Sometimes people tend to choose the "bad guys" instead of the good guys. Without knowing it, they find them more exciting. The good guys seem boring so we aren't attracted to them. Consequently we end up with the abusive jerks, and we don't know why.

Actually the good guys aren't as boring as we think! They just don't act it out in public and/or are more of a gentleman when out. Perhaps talking with a therapist will help cause I could be all wet, too!

I wish you the very best Jazzy. Please take care and God bless. And let us know how things work out, okay? Hugs, Lee