Hi Candy,

So sorry you are feeling so down right now. Think of each one of us that is writing back to you, actually being there with you. What do you think we, each, look like? Might be fun to think about!
Also, think of all of us giving you a hug and telling you it's going to be OK.
I hope you will be able to find a good therapist or someone you can call friend soon.
Take care,
Linda