Thank you Big Mama, for sharing your story with me. It is a relief to know I am not alone, definitely.

Sadly for me, things are at a point where it is interfering with my life. But I am waiting to be assessed and will hopefully be starting therapy soon. I am less bothered by a diagnosis than I am about getting a handle on things. I want to understand myself, because I think that is the best way to manage things so I can get on with my life.

Some days, like today, it is very hard. I have flashbacks and/or dissociate and I miss time, then find things I don't remember doing. Such as this morning, I drew and wrote some stuff I don't remember doing. But I think it has given me a lot of insight into what I was experiencing so in that way it can be useful.

Sometimes I think I may have DID, or another dissociative disorder. Other times I think it is a part of PTSD. The worst are the times I think I must be making it up somehow.

Whatever the case, I think therapy will help me work it out. I am scared but also hopeful (for right now anyway).

Milli

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