hi really appreciate ur reply. i told him he could be honest and say he didnt like being with me he kept saying "it was cool". and the cutting him off was to see if he cared enough to even send a msg which he didnt! therefore i was going to really just forget about him. but then i met other guy in that chat and he seemed interested but the more i knew about him the more i remembered he is nothing like this guy. so i went to skype and added him again. i wanted so badddd to talk to him yest but i didnt want to be the weak part, u know. i think if he even wants me to be in his life he has to show he has a freaking hear and that i matter (i already think i suck, thats why i getttt so madddd when he doesnt give a damn!)