I feel like in the past few months my psychotic symptoms have worsened significantly. I can't leave the house without feeling like I'm being followed. I see men and I can't help but worry that they'll rape me. I feel like all the cars driving by are judging me.

I had a bit of an embarrassing incident at the mall. I'm not really sure whether to blame it on Psychosis or Anxiety. We were walking and we passed a man who had some sort of strange device in his jacket. It was probably a this-is-stolen warning device, but I thought it was a bomb. So, basically I had a panic attack with a great deal of hysterical crying in the middle of a mall. I was fine literally five minutes later.

I had a nightmare about a murderer, but when I woke up my sister was screaming. I thought there was a murderer in the house and continued to think that even after I was told she was screaming because of a bat. Then I started having unrelated crazies. I thought the lightning was people taking pictures of me from outside the window. I thought I heard the door open (it dings when it opens), but it was closed, so that kind of fed my belief that there was a murderer.

I don't know where I am going with this post. Psychosis just sucks.