I started new medication about a week ago, and I'm feeling weird. I started feeling really depressed in the evenings, desperate. Then I noticed that in the mornings I wake up easier and feel good. It's been four days now that I wake up before 9.30 a.m. and that's a huge accomplishment for me (my usual wake up time has been for months between 13:00 and 16:00.) So I feel good for about an hour, then I feel exhausted like I want to just collapse, then I try to pull myself together, maybe I can concetrate for half hour to whatever I have to do and then I get either very hyperactive or feel desperate and start crying. And all this goes on all day. Yesterday I felt so tired after all this that I went to bed around 19:00, I felt really bad. Then I woke up at 21:30 but I didn't manage to do much studying. Thankfully, I didn't stay up late and I woke up early today, but it's the same again. Can't work like that. I was thinking that I can't make the deadline for a project I have for school and I should go talk to the professor if I could turn it in later. But I don't know if I want to expose my problems, then I don't know if they matter at all and I expose them for nothing and I also don't think it's fair for the rest of the students, everybody has issues but they try and manage. I still have four days. Let's hope I get it done.
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