I feel very anxious these days, with all my mood swings, I can't handle it. I take xanax when I start being hyperactive in order to calm down and be able to study and though it does calm me , I'm kind of in a blur afterwards. I know it can hav that symptom that's why I take a small dose, but still.
Today, I feel so intense after experiencing all my mood swings, I've gone from productive and optimistic to desperate, then hopeful, then crying then I gave up and stopped trying to concentrate on my studying. I feel the intensity under my skin. I mean, sometimes i feel all my anxiety concentrated in a body part, like my arm, or my leg or my shoulder. Now it's all over. I really want to cut myself right now. I feel like If I cut myself I will release all these bad feelings and I will feel better. The only thing stopping me is that is summer and it will be visible. But that doesn't really help because the anxiety and all these feelings won't go away.