I haven't been on in a while, but I have had many things happen in the past few months that I've barely had time to take a breath. I've lost my car, I'm about to lose my house after this month, and my daughter has moved away to another state (that part is good). Everything that is happening to me, however, is child's play compared to the blow I've just received in the past few weeks. The man I've been in love with for years now has been diagnosed with metasticized lung cancer. It seemed like it just started with pain in his arm, he fell and his arm never got better, so I made him go to the doctor, and they found something on the X-ray they did an MRI. It turned out to be bone cancer, which they said came from somewhere else. So they did another scan, and found it's in his lung. I'm scared to death after everything I've been reading, and the doctors keep sending him for more tests, they don't tell us much of anything. Now he has to have a biopsy, so the doctor lady can determine the course of treatment. From everything I'm reading, there doesn't seem to be a whole lot of treatment options for someone with cancer this far gone. I watch him struggle with the pain every day, and he grows tired very easily, and I can't imagine watching him waste away and die. It scares me to death. I've totally forgotten about my problems, except for the fact I got drug tested at my last p-doc visit, and am being told by people that I won't be able to be prescribed my anti-anxiety medication because I smoke Marijuana. I hope that's not the case, because how am I going to get thru this and remain strong for him if I don't have my meds? He doesn't need me to act all weepy and crap, I try to be as normal as possible, altho it's hard. How do you cope with something like this?