It's the strain of being a single mom... I loved being pregnant and love kids. My own is just a difficult child and it's not easy parenting him. I knew going into that relationship that we would not have kids. He didnt want and I made my choice and thought I met the right person for me and thought that was enough. i thought i was going down the right path...I pushed what I thought was just a fantasy of happily ever after aside....and now am trying to find it with someone that Doesn't want kids... I really am at a point(age) where I wouldn't have any more. Too late...