Yes, yes and yes! That's why I'm stuck. I'm in a marriage that's sinking like a ship, I'm a still unpublished writer who's too messed up to write, I spend my days watching movies, The Military Channel or Doctor Who, I dream about getting divorced and getting away from a woman who's actually more effed up than me(but think's she's normal). Actually, already contacting law firms. Physically falling apart, sleep deprived, mourning a friend with bipolar who died too young from a heart attack... I'm keeping up the hope of finding that brighter day. I've got to. I don't want to consider the alternative.