Hello GenCat. Please don't hate your self for something that is not your fault. I'm not very different from you; I can't socialize with others, I don't go to parties or social gatherings, I can't talk to others well, people push me around but I can't talk to people's face. I am already done with my graduation but my undergrad life didn't go well. I couldn't mix up with others whereas my fellow class mates spent wonderful undergrad life, they have lots of friends, they used to meet up in campus regularly to chat, they used to have their breakfast or lunch together, they visited different places together but I did nothing but sit alone in a corner of the class and study, though my result is not great due to my anxiety and depression. Its not like I haven't tried to be like the regular undergrad students but I failed to do that because I was depressed, anxious and also because of my introvert characteristics and shyness I was kind of rejected by most of them. And I'm still struggling but I haven't given up yet. I've heard that psycho therapy works well though I haven't tried them. I hope you will overcome one day.