Hello there.

I know its unfair to have a broken promise, and he shouldn't have said he was not going away this weekend. But as long as it doesn't take up nearly all the weekends and you guys spend some quality time together, then I would think it was fair and healthy for him to have a hobby. Its good that he has invited you in the past but it's not his fault that you didn't like it and I don't think you should begrudge him this if it is a passionate hobby. You should be pleased for him actually - take some enjoyment out of seeing him happy.

Now that leaves you. I do think that you may depend on him too much by your wording. Your depression, anxiety attacks are horrible, real and I feel for you. I am sorry to hear that he get's fed up when you have an attack, that's not fair. I wonder if some therapy would not do you some good? And perhaps take your husband to one or two so he can hear from the therapist what you suffer from in a professional manner. He may understand better, and react less emotionally.

And emotions. Your husband should be your number 1 - but he shouldn't be your only source of comfort and support. It's not healthy to need him as much as you do, to resent him for going away even though you are invited. A good support network of family and friends are important too, as well as the big one - to be able to help yourself. And that is trying to improve your mental state. It's not easy, but with good help and perhaps medication for a while, you may be able to lift yourself out of this bubble of depression. You're resenting him for going away but if you'd had more confidence and in a happier place then perhaps you could make the most of the 'me time', and seeing friends, having fun, doing your own hobbies and enjoying yourself. Basically you would be able to see the silver lining rather than just the big black cloud.

I hope you'll get some help to make yourself happier and I wish you all the best.