Over the last few days, I've noticed some weird things happening. First, I swear, I can hear someone calling my name, but nobody is. Hell, sometimes, nobody is around. I'm actually going out and feeling like I full of this confidence that I don't usually have, I can't sit still, I can't sleep even though I'm exhausted and haven't really slept since Monday.

But I'm getting things done. I'm catching up at work. I don't know what is going on in my head, and I think maybe I'm starting to cycle upward, which is just as scary to me as down. I'm spending money, I really don't have, but really don't care about it. I'm talking loud.

I'm lost, but I want to find my way. I can't let this beat me.

I'm just trying to get it all out so I can see it.