i wasn't talking to her for the last two weeks she was alive, then i got to school two weeks ago and found out she was dead. i cried, obviously. but since then, i literally have not reacted to any of it.

i know she's dead, but i feel nothing when i think about it. people usually feel sad talking or in denial or something. but i had shut her out when we stopped talking and i feel like that's why i don't feel any ways?

then i found out another girl i was close with in a psych ward because she tried to kill herself like 6times. and she was talking to my friend the night of. it just kind of upset me that when i went to see said friend, she told me that i mistreated my passed friend and that i never really understood her.

anyway, i just haven't felt any emotion towards what has happened, even the day after my best friend died, i was normal and people thought i was crazy.

is this normal, 'cause i feel it isn't. but at the same time, i don't feel anything so.