I'm 23, turning 24 in august. I have never had a boyfriend. I know I'm not alone on that one because a lot of girls wait to get in relationships. I have had a lot of abusive things happen so I am plagued with wanting those abusive memories to be replaced with a healthy, loving relationship. I grew up the "independent woman." when other middle school girls were talking about boys, I was thinking about setting career goals! -even that young. I feel like I have no value. I feel unwanted- so many girls get multiple requests to be in a relationship and I can't get one! I grew up not really caring about whether or not I was in a relationship and now, all of a sudden, it's killing me to be alone! I hate it! I feel so sad deep inside, unattractive, and wonder what about me is of less worth. I hate being in a place like this, which is why I have always strived not to be- I rarely ever comment or complain about not being in a relationship- while friend after friend complains about their boyfriend or was in a relationship and has only been single for like 3 or 4 months... well, they'll complain and I'm just like... how about you try 23 years of single? no, I sit quiet... don't say a word...and let them vent out. Yet, I'm here alone and always will be. I hate feeling any sort of slight desperation because I've always prided myself on the fact that I am a woman who can stand my own ground and be my own person but, I can't seem to keep up this strength anymore... I just feel like a worthless piece of crap that no one wants.
maybe, I thought a woman forum would understand this... idk...
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