Hello i am sorry to hear that you are not feeling well at this time. I am going to leave you the hotline number for mental health is you would like to talk to someone in person. 1-800-273-TALK. NAMI and DBSA also have some very good support meetings. Both meetings can be found on the internet. Have you talked to your therapist about how you are feeling. Winter is not a good season for some people diagnised with depression and bipolar. The Dr can possibly help you at this time. There are light available for depression as well. you can find them on the internet under (lights for depression) you can possibly get a prescription from your Dr for the light and the insurance will cover the light. I hope the best for you. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia