Yea, I feel pretty much the same way. I'm tired of being quiet in social situations. Been this way for too long. Makes me want to give up. I can't really give advice when I need it my self, but you're not alone. I have been having great struggles with this. Thought about ending it before. But we have to fight for a future we can not see. We have to live like we're not broken. We have to look out for each other and know we're in this together. Be strong, good music always helps me when I decide to isolate myself. You will know better times.