Don't despair yet. Meds take time to take effect. Plus there are so many to choose from. It can take some time for the dr. to get the right mix for you. It took mine 2 years but I'm much better now.
Are you seeing a therapist? You probably would feel better if you could talk to someone.
Please just hang on. Keep on going to your dr. until he can find the med that you need.
Post here whenever you want and maybe try the live chat. ope you feel better soon.
I hope you feel better soon.