Thank you, Christina. This site is becoming my world wide portal to a community of like minded people, each of us sharing our problems, small or large victories and encouraging each other. With the death of my friend, I am so lost and in pain. The only other person who had such a profound influence on my life was my father. Both of them shared their hard earned wisdom and lifes lessons, but I still managed to follow every wrong path and screw my life up but good. Mental illness is a family legacy. How can someone be so smart in some ways and so stupid in others?