ugh. i have been struggling hard for a few days now. i am crushed by anxiety and depression. i don't know what to do. i have a pdoc appt on tuesday so at least there's that. but i feel horrible. i feel like i can't breathe right now. i took half a klonopin to help calm me down but i don't know if it will work. i can't take a whole one because i'm med sensitive and that will put me to sleep in no time.

i just want relief. i want to cut myself but i can't do that because my husband will be pissed as hell.

i felt best on the 15mgs of abilify but i can't deal with the side effects.

maybe i shouldn't have quit IOP but that was too much for me. I couldn't handle going to work and then going there for three hours afterwards.

i just hope it gets better soon. seems like there's a lot of pain on the board recently. i hope we can all make it.