*this was also posted in the BPD forum

Hey, I've just joined this website (initially to use the mood tracker), and thought this forum could be of use.

Two weeks ago I was assessed by a psychiatrist after telling my GP that I suffer from depressions and anger/irritation. My GP put me on Wellbutrin until I could see the psychiatrist. My appointment with the psychiatrist was an hour long and by the end he told me that he thinks I have Bipolar II with borderline characteristics. He put me on a list for a BD therapy group but otherwise has offered no other counsel. He even said that my meds are probably not right for me (Wellbutrin can increase irritability) but we'll meet again in 2 months to discuss them. I asked if I should be seeing a psychologist and he said that if he called a doctor to refer me, saying he had a patient with BD with BPD characteristics, they'd "just laugh" (not even sure what this means).

I've realized since my assessment that I lied/omitted a lot of information that would support the BPD diagnosis. I didn't want to be judged, I guess. I told him I was impulsive sexually, but I didn't tell him that my life falls apart afterwards when the person I slept with doesn't "want me" past that experience. I also told him that the sex is always protected, which it isn't (I do get tested regularly, though). He seemed to think that because I'm not abusing drugs or alcohol that my impulsivity isn't that bad. I told him that I control how different people perceive me because I want to "cater" to what they want and expect, but he didn't seem to think that was significant. My mood swings on a daily basis and usually in reaction to something, like feeling rejected or ignored. I told him about a girl who used to be my friend but said some mean things about me and to me, so now I avoid her because I fear that when I see her I'll slap her (and the thought of doing so brings me great pleasure haha). Again he didn't seem to think this was that significant.

I don't know, I guess I just feel like he got like 60% of the picture. He also has offered no strategies for what to do. Actually, that's wrong, he said I should Google Bipolar II and learn about the condition (I've obviously done tons of this already). He said that if I feel like I'm getting worse or "something new" is happening I need to go back. I've been super, super depressed the last 24 hours and I've been fighting the urge to self-harm for these 24 hours. I've been in bed and trying to distract myself from these thoughts. This is in response to feeling like my friends are unreliable and dismissive (my friend told me Friday night that he can no longer move into my house on July 1st). I guess that's worse. I know I need to see him or another doctor and be fully honest, but maybe I'm actually fine? Does this sound like Bipolar II or do I have more that just "borderline characteristics"? I know this forum isn't for diagnosis, I just want some opinions, I guess,

Thanks!