This guy keeps contacting me still!It makes me feel like he just is "stir my pot of emotions".I do great until he or my ex before him come along.My T said no "outsiders" is best and I am most humble without "outsiders".

So he calls and want's nothing really.I guess to check on me.I tell him I am doing great and getting better.I told him I cannot handle talking to him it makes me go into a relapse.He argues that I can handle it!I finally just said hey this is what I need for "me" and if you cannot respect it I do not know what to tell him with his every 2 week check up's.

I told him I have to take care of me cause I am all I got.He said sorry which is a reflection of how I came at him.This is way better than bringing out my PTSD and cursing him with anger.But I still had a MELT down and sad.