Oh, wow, you sweet girls are breaking my heart! Love has literally nothing to do with what you look like, so keys get that out of the way because you know in your heart how beautiful you are.

YOur mental health is anouther story. Seek help, every day, be persistent until you get help. Don't let anything stand in your way because the world will seem to conspore against your efforts. You will struggle getting insurance, you will thwart ignorant doctors and missunderstanding friends. You will need to turn into a warrior for your life. Its going to be harder than you can imagine, wrong meds, wrong diagnosis, but you know there's something wrong, so fight for yourself! Do it now while your young. Its even harder when you're young to judge your psyche, but there is no doubt your situation is very very serious and you need to keep reminding everyone that your situation is serious and you are asking, pleading, for help. Not on forums, but in a doctorate office. I believe in going to the emergency room and getting yourself admitted. They can observe you and your medication. Just don't get site up in the fear of stigmitizaton. Get a diagnosis, get a doctor, keep trying meds till you are on one that you really like and don't let anyone stand in your way.