Thank you one and all. I'm still depressed but will try drag myself up... no more reading the notes!!!,,, It is a new opportunity isn't it? I can try a new therapist... self talk here...

Wish me luck, I have a sleep study tomorrow night.. for years I have avoided it... made appointments, cancelled them, didn't turn up to one that I didn't cancel - kinda thought that would do it - I figured they wouldn't give me another appointment... not very nice of me I know....
I just really have a difficult time sleeping let alone with all the montiering... my recent brochial asthma diag. has gotten me to go... I never knew that asthma could be so miserble..

I wonder if all my nightmares will show up somehow?... had them all my life... they are really vivid....
I'll let you know...

Take care....