I have schizo-affective disorder and take 160 mgs of geodon and .5 klonipin a day for anxiety. That's all the meds I'm taking and have been taking since 2007.

Two weeks ago I decided I would try to see what it would be like if I stopped taking the meds cold turkey. The first few days were ok. But by the second week I was becoming paranoid and suicidal. It was terrible. After a day of thinking I should die and come down with a terminal illness like cancer and that I was unworthy of life, I decided to take my medication again. The next day I felt so much better.

I guess I'm going to be on my meds for life. The paranoia and suicidal thoughts were just too much.

Never going off my meds unless supervised by a pdoc. I didn't realize just how badly I needed them until I stopped taking them.

Lesson learned.