I've never posted to any group, so bear with me. I've sought out help here because even with insurance, I don't have the money to go to a professional. I've felt like I've dealt with depression off and on for the past 20 years. But each time, it gets worse. I feel like I don't have a good support system. Like there is no one to talk to. I really have no family to speak of and very few friends. My issues stem mostly from relationships. I don't have very good luck and have never had someone that I felt was a good match. That I could see being with for any length of time. I finally met a guy, who unfortunately was going through a divorce, so although I knew it was bad timing on his part, I could see being with him for the rest of my life. We are so perfect for each other, same interests, same way of looking and living life. We had 3 glorious months. I felt so comfortable with him. Then 2 weeks ago he abruptly stopped talking to me, a week later, I finally got a response from him that he wasn't ready for a serious relationship, which is what I had been afraid of. Now, I feel no interest in doing anything. I'm sad all the time, can't deal with being around other people. I eat about half what I used to. Sleep on average 3 hours a night. It's never been this bad and I don't know what to do.