Before the break I was manic for quite some time. A few weeks at least. I was studying a bunch of weird things, spirt science, astral projection, theory of everything, binary beats, devils bible, history of the world, and other things I found on youtube at the time when I thought it was all interesting. I even planned on learning another language. On top of watching all these videos I was drinking a lot of coffee and didn't have much need for sleep. I felt on top of the world as if nothing could phase me and I had the most confidence I've ever had in my life. I was so happy and thought I was a genius because I was always thinking of new ideas and had new plans for the future.

I was psychotic for about five weeks. During that time I listened to my music up at college in my room for days. I believed god was talking to me through music. I was also reading passages from the bible. I thought I was Santa Clause, Joseph father of Jesus, and that the men in black were real and after me. I thought I was receiving all the information in the world at one time. During my break I felt so empowered with all the knowledge in the universe. In reality it was me just believing my psychotic thoughts. I remember thinking we were all going to ascend into another dimension. I remember feeling like I could see the future and feel peoples astral body when I would walk out in public. I felt the presence of everyone around me. I spent most my time indoors because I believed people were after me.

It was like a rush of thoughts that never seemed to stop. It was very intense and fast pace. Didn't need sleep and wanted to keep going to see what was next. I use to smoke quiet a bit before my break and they say that can have an influence on chemicals in the brain. Have you had problems socializing and having things to say in groups of people? Can you not make connections and talk about a topic for a specified period of time?