Christina, VJ, thank you for your kind words. I am about to try a calcium channel blocker, which is what stabilized me two decades ago, but ended up giving me coronary artery spasms. My pdoc and the doctor who originally prescribed(a world reknowned bipolar researcher and psychiatrist) don't believe it was the medicine but several other doctors I know thought the medicine was the cause, since I never had it happen again once I went off it. I'm going to take a much lower dose and p**s on them. I'm not in the market for a heart attack.

Meanwhile, another heavy dose of dreaded Klonopin, tonight. Maybe I'll move to California and find a good marijuana doctor. There are a few good ones out there.