I mucked up yet another very important appointment because I couldn't hang with how many people were in the waiting room.
When I walked in, I saw a full waiting room and everyone was looking at me.
My anxiety went through the roof, so turned around and walked out knowing full well it was going to be a costly mistake.
Did my anxiety care that that was my only chance appointment, and now I'm screwed?
NO.
Does my anxiety take the backseat so that I may do simple things like sit in a waiting room with other people??
NOPE!
I even tried to explain to someone once that I couldn't do group counseling, because my anxiety would not allow me to:
1. walk in
2. sit through or
3. Participate
His response was "well then group will be good for you"
Hello? Its not an excuse to try to get out of doing something jerk!
Its very real and stronger than my fear of the consequences.
Everybody just thinks it's an excuse or a cop out.
It's so frustrating!
Nobody understands.