I remember Fall semester, after hours of procrastination, I got thankfully a 90 on my report card which led me to burst in tears because I had dropped 4% and 2% on my transcript.

I vowed to myself that Spring Semester is going to be better but it was WORST EVER TO EXIST. I dropped to 89% in 1st Marking PD, 77% in 2nd Marking PD and the 3rd Marking PD grades are due tomorrow for all the teachers so we could get our report card after State Regents (New York) on June 26th and I am failing in almost all my classes.

I made the gold honor role since freshmen year and this is the end of junior year. I wanted to go to Stanford and now, I am pretty sure I am not going to be accepted at all. I dunno what to do. Stay up all night and complete my work? My parents wouldn't allow.

I have been depressed since last three years and my school social worker finally called this semester to my parents to let me see a psychiatrist. My parents hate that I am ruining their social reputation and no body wants me to get help. Basically, asking for help after twice failed attempts of suicide had been the worst decision. My social worker told me that I may be a bipolar if not clinically depressed.

I don't know how to concentrate. somebody please help me!! I hate the stupid feelings and these awful mood swings. I am hopeless!! I want at least a 90 this Marking Period!!! (3rd Marking PD goes on the transcript of each semester)