I think I know what you mean. I was only an acquaintance to most people I met too. I was really guarded in my speech and people didnt seem to get what I was saying. There were a few people that accepted me just the way I was. I still have those friends and we see each other sometimes. A lot of thier friends realize they know me through being with my original group cause we all ran into each other over the years at random but I never really spoke much outside the main circle. Friends have come and gone, I live in a college town and a lot of the people I knew moved on or we had disagreements and stopped being together. I admit I was really hard to understand, didnt understand myself very well and was generally a pretty complex person. Few people took time to understand me but there were, at key times, people who seemed to see inside me and understand a lot about how I felt without much discussion. It was always their smile that told me what good people they were inside themselves and made me want to be just like them. Confident and loving.