is there anything grounding that can help with the anxiety? I know for me, taking care of my animals helps. I go into my reptile room for 3 hours and come out relaxed and a little better off... I know that's not everyone's cup of tea though. I hear you about sleep meds messing with things. I am facing a similar struggle lately. If I take a full dose, I'm hung over for well into the next day. If I take a half dose, I sleep like crap, but still get hung over at about the 10 hour mark (which is really weird because I can be awake several hours before then and function fine but crash later... the doctors look at me weird when I tell them).
I'm sorry you are struggling so much right now. Is your husband a good support? My wife gets frustrate with me, but in the end (after we talk and argue) she can help bring me around.
((hugs)) hope your T gets back to you on Monday, and you can stay safe the rest of the night.