A pretty good day. Last night I watched a pretty good movie called The Robot and Frank. This morning when I got up I was having dreadful thoughts. I'm thinking about the future and I keep imagining how so little people that I have in my life are going to parish away and I would really miss them. And then having to deal with the tragedy of them dying off. All of my friends (with what very little I have) and family are all older than me. My family is not much of anything, but still I would feel bad if something happened to them.

I went to church this morning and the sermon was about suffering and how illnesses of others effect you. It seemed like it was what I needed to hear, even though the subject was depressing. I had a pretty nice lunch with a friend of mine following the church service. He seems to think that I should just "snap out of" my depression and anxiety. He says that no matter what he says to me, I can't snap out of it. Other than that, the lunch went well. I even patted a little bird at lunch because it flew over to our table (we ate outside) wanting food. I would have made a new feathered friend if only I had given it some food.

I went on a bike ride but it was only for an hour because I was busy today. I got a phone call from an ex friend. It went OK.