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Old Jun 09, 2013, 11:28 PM
AnotherStory AnotherStory is offline
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Hello everyone, I figured I would drop by and share my own story. I was 23 and had been smoking a moderate amount of pot for about a year, at which point I ended up falling into an infatuation with a girl which threw me for a loop. I ended up in a situation where it felt like I was at the center of "The Truman Show" so to speak, but instead of breaking out I stuck with it candidly playing along as I got worse. Auditory hallucinations 24/7 that I would have conversations with, delusions, communicating with the television, etc. Eventually I cracked and ended up in the hospital for 2 months, got out and managed a full recovery after a year leaving me without needing medication. Anyway the point I wanted to talk about is how much of a "high" I got from the euphoric feelings of an infatuation under the influence of psychosis. Such a high that it can literally render you in a zombie like state, or leave your whole body on turbo charged butterflies. It has been roughly two years since my recovery but ever since I have been unable to conjure up the natural feelings of attachment/love that I should be able to feel. Did I break my limiter so to speak and now am broken? Am I simply not nearly as sensitive anymore? Or maybe it will just take time, and the right woman to come along to make me feel even a fraction of what I felt at one point in my life? Has anyone else experienced this? I would love to hear some insight from others on the matter.