Christina,

My theory is that all that stuff is part of the same thing. I do that too. Sometimes I SI, and sometimes, particularly when not SIing, I avoid eating. Like you, I'm not anorexic - I don't do it that much - not underweight, and I'm not bulimic - I don't purge (unless you want to count occasional over-exercising and use of dietary supplements to promote weight-loss). I do think that I should be very small and not take up any space. If you look at my BMI, I'm slightly overweight, but 70% of women of my age and height weigh more than I do.

I think it's just one more way to cope. To deal with emotions that we don't know how to deal with properly. To try to control something. Which method we use doesn't mean nearly so much as learning to deal with life in a more proactive way. It might seem like one method is better, or less harmful, than another, but they all hurt us by helping us to avoid dealing with what we're not dealing with.

TC,
Rap