I'm toying with the idea of self harm. I want to do it, But I'm not sure what my motivations are... and it's too early to seek support from a live person. Maybe if I just sit here long enough it will go away? I see my t later but... I don't know. I don't know if I want to have that conversation. There is already so much else to talk about. Why doesn't this just get easy and stay easy? I don't like this.