This is probably going to sound crazy but when I have kids one day I want there to be something wrong with them. I just don't want to have healthy kids. I would like to have conjoined twins or kids with dwarfism. Maybe autism or even mental retardation. Maybe cerebral palsy or organ problems.

It probably sounds really sick. I guess I just want my kids to stand out. Or maybe I just want to take care of them and be constantly reassured that they will always need me.

Am I the only one who feels this way? This is probably not normal, right? Why do I feel this way? What is wrong with me?