I think a lot of people at some point want to see if they are better off without their meds, including me, and want to see that perhaps things have changed over time. You are not alone in this. It can be comforting though to find out for sure if you need them in a controlled environment. However, after several unsuccessful attempts to go off of them over the years for me, I think of my meds now as helping me to be at my best and I cannot no longer afford to check on them by going off. I have accepted that if they help me to function, there is every reason to take them and no reason not to take them, just like someone that has high blood pressure takes their meds or a diabetic takes their insulin to stay safe and healthy.

I hope all is going really well for you and wishing you the best as you move forward. ((((((bluecupcake)))))