Hi, I'm so sorry you are both suffering so. If he is having increasing difficulties like those you mentioned, it may be best to take him to the emergency dept. of your local hospital to be evaluated. Neither one of you need to die. There is help available, you just need to go get it and the emergency dept. is the perfect place. If he won't go with you, call your local police and they will be happy to take him to the hospital for you. Life can get so much better. Why suffer when you don't have to?
Take care,
Sandy