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Hello. I imagine it goes without saying, but I’m new to the forum. Sadly, I can’t say I’m new to depression. I’ve been struggling with depression and OCD for most of my adult life (I’m 28 now), and… I’m just especially overwhelmed with the helplessness of it lately. What’s becoming increasingly difficult is that I feel like I have no one to really talk to or vent with about it. I’m seeing a therapist, and on antidepressants…but I feel like I have to be careful how honest I am about the severity of it. For example, I’m very resistant to ideas such as suicide. That said…I can’t deny thoughts of it. Still, having a family history of depression, I’ve seen directly what can happen from admitting that openly to your doctor.
…I don’t feel like I should have to fear being honest about something I’m suffering with, but more and more I feel like I have no choice but to bite my tongue in most areas. I suppose that’s why I’m hopeful about a forum like this. Maybe, in the anonymity of it, I can be honest about my worst thoughts and just…. I dunno. Get them out and discuss them in a healthier context.
Hopefully being that blunt, or rambling a bit, isn’t a problem. I just don’t know how to deal with this kind of stress and depression without talking about it, but I’m worried honest will end up with my in inpatient care at some hospital…and financial reality prevents that kind of medical allowance for now.
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