Hey team,

I've been thinking about posting here for a bit but thought I might be able to get my rant out of my system... Alas I have not.

So I saw an old friend (also long term crush) today. He seemed to have it so together... Hobbies, long term relationship, good job, car, dog even!

Every time I look on Facebook my friends are all marrying, breeding or house buying... I am starting to feel a it left behind, which I'm ok with. I just got diagnosed last year after having bipolar since I was 18 (I'm 26 now) and I know I've done well all things considered. I have a degree and an ok job and I work four days per week which is enough money and enough to keep me sane-ish.

But I kind of worry about the future and all of the things people juggle in life.

I want a relationship (my only one lasted eight weeks), I want a family one day, or at least a dog... But there are so many things!

For me getting to Work, lasting the week, doing my washing, having meals and not being mad is the pinnical of success, quite the achievement.

I just can't see how I could cope with a partner, let alone an infant (not that that is on the cards any time soon if at all!) or even my dream of a puppy.

Does this even make sense?

It's like I can just juggle two balls, my peers are juggling five and in the future they'll be juggling ten balls while I'm stuck on two still.

Does anyone else feel like this? It plays on my mind a bit?