Hello everybody i just wanted to take this opprutunity to introduce myself to the group. I've never done anything like this before, i'm hoping that maybe something like this will help. I've tried just about every medication made and then some, they just don't work, and the ones that do make me feel like a zombie, mainly all the ssri's. I want to actually enjoy life, not just feel like a placeholder occupying a body. For so long i've been hanging on by just a thread, and thats not good enough anymore, i want to get better, get to the root of this depression, not just cover it up, like spraying an air freshner, to temporarily solve the problem. Odors come for somewhere, you can spray and spray and spray but until you find out what's causing the smell it'll always be there, always. I find it difficult to talk to people, and yet i want to reach out so badly, but the works just never seem to come. This taxes me greatly and puts into a downward spiral, leading to thoughts of death.
Here without the judging eyes muffling my thoughts i hope to grow into a healthier person. Sorry if i've rambled and may everybody have a day filled with pleasant thoughts.