After my overdose 3 days ago my head is starting to feel the pain again i slept for 27 hours and now all the diazepam and sleepers have worn off,ive now resorted to cutting,slicing my legs with a kitchen knife ,the pain is quick and sharp and i think it releases endorphins because i immediatley feel good,I know im losing the plot and i am going to have to admit myself to hospital but i am so scared of the stigma of being a mental patient and maybe they wont let me out it worries me so much but i need to go soon because i can feel myself getting worse,ive been awake all night and cant sleep,and i woke up feeling so good as well.Why is this happening to me.it was all going well until a couple of months ago