Thank you all, I just need to find belief in myself or someone. I considered religion but I'm terrified that if I believed the "other side" is a better place, then I'd end up there sooner rather than later. I readily admit I spend far to many hours each day, questioning myself. Trying to figure out who I am, I just can't find any answers. I don't know where else to look? I'm confused and I never used to be. I always knew who I was, I'm just not that person anymore, so "who am I"?