le [quote=genetic;3106143]You've described depression beautifully, in my view: "it's like a big empty space that can
rarely be filled." The answer really lies in what we decide to fill that empty space with,
doesn't it?

I've read that the whole purpose of our life is to return to spiritual fullness. Maybe that's
one thing we might consider for filling the empty space.

As bharani1 said, you have our attention and our support.[/quote
Thank you. It is a comfort talking on here and I'm glad to have found this forum. It's interesting what you say about spiritual fullness. I've always been pretty spiritual and a believer that we keep coming back and choose each life for a reason. It used to really help me cope with my lot - read a couple of books books by Michael Newton 'Journey of the Souls' and 'Destiny of the souls' about life between lives and it really made me believe that no matter how hard life was this life was just a fragment of my existence and that there was a much much bigger picture. I really believed I chose this life wholeheartedly because I wanted to learn, sorrow, loneliness, grief etc. Since my son died I haven't been able to find comfort in it but maybe it will return. Something weird happened after he died, too. I've been under hypnosis a few times and lightly meditated and always I saw a bright blue light which got bigger the deeper I went. But now when I close my eyes all I see is darkness, my blue light has gone. I feel like it's the light in my soul gone out. I wonder if it will ever come back. Does anyone have any thoughts on this?