Hi Lonly Writer & Erika3,

I would like to say you are not alone. I think of suicide often too, I sometimes feel as if I am getting better then I go thru times of extreme lows and dont know how to get out again. I have not told anyone how I feel even those close to me, I get scared and I have a hard time even getting the words out. I fear people will think Im crazy and not want to be around me. I already feel that no one wants to be around me, I am completley lonley and have no one to talk to. I have been on medications for many years, and I have been on many diffrent kinds, Latly I feel that the one I am on isnt working anymore. I try to tell myself to get over it and that it could be worse but it doenst seem to help. I have been struggling for a while I dont know how to talk to anyone, even here. Please forgive me though, I have never used this kind of webiste or even been on any kind of "Forum" so I am having a hard time expresing myself.