mdngtrain,
you are in the right place. You didn't say whether you have gone through with hurting yourself in the past or this is still in the thinking stage. Regardless, it is never too early to contact a real person. If you have already started harming yourself, you know how hard the urges are to stop. If you haven't, once you start it is extremely hard to sop.

Self harm becomes an addiction very very quickly, and the scars last a lifetime. I know. From the age of ten until two years ago, (I'm fifty now), I couldn't stop. I wanted to, but I just couldn't. Sometimes months would go by without a problem, then a stressor or trigger would come and I'd start again. It wasn't always cutting, but usually it was. I have scars, areas of numbness, areas of pain when the skin is touched by clothing and spent years feeling like a freak.

If you find that coming to this forum is not helping enough, please get help as soon as you can. The longer it goes on, the harder it is to stop. It can take over your life just like any addiction. All you think of what to do to yourself. You start to hide objects so that you will have a handy instrument to injure yourself with.

You need to know that no matter how careful you are, there is always the chance of bleeding out, cutting a tendon and losing the use of a limb, or getting a serious infection. In hospitals, great care is taken in surgery to keep everything sterile. Still, there are post operative infections. There is simply no way to be sure that you won't develop an infection, and they can be deadly.

Sam2