Gracez, thank you for your kind words. I hope you can find some relief, at least a little, for at least today (to start with)--btw I do relate to those days of feeling like all I want and need to do is start screaming at the top of my lungs and "never" stop.... A year of deep depression is a very long time, and am sorry that you're going through such a long and intense experience such as this. I have had some months of great relief ("seeing the light at the end of the tunnel") but then things just reverted back. That is hard enough--can't imagine a full year of near constant sadness. Keep writing and sharing. Thanks again for your reply.