I've been having mixed motions lately and not sure how to describe them. My therapist has helped me out a lot. <3 But now since Fathers Dy is coming up, I was thinking about my dad last night and wished that he was a better dad in m life. He was very abusive emotionally and physically especially my mom, got us homeless and now hasn't spoke to me much for the past 8 months. I don't think he cars out me anymore... He only talks to my sisters and brother, but not me. H waned to see me while I was at the hospital when I did my suicide attempt and I was like no because I'm not mentally stable to see him. I'm still not. He still came anyway and he and my mom were arguing. He hasn't see me since nor help my mom out.