Quote:
Originally Posted by intergalactictraveler
Trippin,
I love you(not in THAT way)but I totally identify with what you've expressed. My late friend and I(roomates in NIH, the US Government research hospital)had dark, crazy, politically incorrect senses of humor and we could talk on the phone for an hour, laughing and being crazy. Now that he's gone, that part of me, that part that is so essentially 'me' has been buried. My wife doesn't share that sense of humor. She thought of my friend and me as two 15 year olds. We were, in some ways! That's part of who I am. My dad also had an off the wall sense of humor and we played off each other like a comedy team. As I'm writing this, I'm tearing up. I don't want to lose that aspect of myself but I never made friends, easily, and the friends I make are friends for life. I miss laughing crazily, insanely. It's better than medicine. In fact, humor IS medicine, yet I fear I'm going to be sad and hurting for many years.
|
Awww Galactic! I love you in not that way too!
I hope you find someone to act like a kid with again, I hope your uncommon sense of humour emerges and that you find someone to enjoy it with! It is possible my friend. And with you making major changes in your life to improve your quality of life, list that as a goal, someone to laugh with till your belly aches!
The future is an unknown variable, don't condemn it before it even has a chance to unfold, instead strive to make it what you would like
I know that's not easy, I was condemning mine 2 weeks ago, but the truth is, we just don't know what lies around the bend and we just might miss it if we insist on closing our eyes
I have no fantasy that my life will magically become a bed of roses and that I'll have a pet unicorn who shyts rainbows.... But I'll be damned if I look back through the years and kick myself for not even daring to try to have the best life possible.